just another sorry

i hate this

2011-03-23T20:34:00.002+08:00

i have no feelings. i dont want to cry. i hate it when u tell me such stuff, when u use words against me when nothing is true. sometimes i truly want to give up.

you are so insensitive. i dont care that u are a doctor seriously. maybe you're not the one for me... i hate to say this, but maybe im better off without u. anyway i feel like a single girl on wkdays cos u dont bother msging me or anything thru the day. your studies are more impt to u anyway. why do i have nothing to say to u... im very tempted to say, lets forget it, lets forget this, lets forget everything that ever happened. im tired. i had a bad day, and u just have to make things worse. i cant deal with this all the time. like i said, its better to be alone than with someone u dont love, or with someone who brings pain into your life...

i hate arguing, maybee u shud look for someone who finds only u cute. i give up...........

lord, why? bachelorette...

2007-12-23T23:58:00.001+08:00

person A: oh no i accidentally killed some ants, and i want to apologise to the rest of the family of ants! but i dont think the ants will understand what i'm trying to say..! how can i tell them i am really sorry?

person B: the only way is, to be borned as an ant, then u can communicate to them and tell them u are sorry.

likewise, jesus was born in flesh, lived on this earth like us human beings, and suffered the same form of pain and agony. all for a greater purpose. only through being born human, can he preach to us the gospel. like the ants story above.

he is the reason i live, and nothing can ever take his place. sometimes i wish the world will know the true meaning of christmas.
merry christmas!

2007-12-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

first taste. sorry.

2007-12-19T14:22:00.000+08:00

today, i finally understand, what pain is. never felt so much pain in my life. shouldnt older people be less prone to sickness/viruses/bacteria infection?

anyway
totally
.......

2007-12-17T23:43:00.000+08:00

in this world, i've never found anyone who thinks the same way as me. but i think i just did. its not that its good or bad. but i find that my thinking is just different from others. especially in this aspect.

i'm not thinking too far into the future. i'm just living life as it is. part of me wants to grow up quickly. the other part of me wishes to remain a little girl forever. even tho i try hard to picture my future, it just fades away.

things have to be done the way i want it to be done. if not i'll get irritated. like now. didnt expect this. at all.

putting all frustrations aside, i'm tired. really tired from kl trip.

wish you'd understand how i feel. i'm sick of this life.

2007-12-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

the similarities scare me so much the first word that comes to my mind is. shoo.

2007-12-09T23:01:00.000+08:00

i know theres no use complaining but the holidays dont seem like holidays. i really hope ppl will be considerate n cooperative. if not, im into this shit, alone.

2007-12-09T20:29:00.001+08:00

mouth watering finger-licking good cooked by, me of course. with help from my dad haha.

2007-12-08T22:14:00.000+08:00

sometimes, even tho theres rain, and everything seems to be dark n gloomy. the rain may just make everything right. and at the same time, make everything dull with a tinge of irritance.

rainy day at sentosa

2007-12-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

when u want it so much, it just doesnt appear in front of you does it. never becomes a reality or a dream come true?

and when u find out u no longer need it, or desire for it, it comes begging at ur feet. how true is this?

2007-11-21T21:02:00.000+08:00

totally made my day! despite the shitiness this whole exam is bringing.

i really miss my vj days. when i was in vj i missed mg. now i miss vj. and i'll do anything, just to go back to the past. but. well. impossible.

whats the point of exams? i feel like...

altho i still have 4 days, its not enough.

2007-11-14T16:24:00.003+08:00

IT? or general knowledge?
gosh. anw its over.

2007-11-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

uni life is like a bullet train. you know the speed of a bullet train? probably even faster than the speed of trasferring data to the CPU from level one cache memory. which is like 10 nanoseconds? alright. IT exam tomorrow. first paper in uni. IT?! graa. i don't like IT or Biz law. altho they are both rather interesting subjects. i like challenging subjects like FM and ACC. ERP, CRM, SCM supply chain management. tmr can finally throw away IT module.

pause n smell the sweet aroma. but its not NOT coming from that direction surely.
goose pimples telling me, please dont be so silly.

2007-10-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

泪湿中的你依然刻在我心底
未来是未实现的回应
挣扎的我，好想不用再回头
见你, 在哭泣

徘徊的旋律不停陪伴着呼吸
熟悉情歌离我们远去
早就该说，我还固执的守候
希望, 却化成悲剧

爱随着一阵寒风,
看不到属于我们的天空
察不掉眼泪所隐藏的伤痛
可能我不够伟大放手

他们都说离开后,
我们会过得更快乐自由
不再为爱闯祸　
给彼此，的幸福是解脱

给彼此，的幸福是解脱
去接受，只是擦肩而过

两个人
一段情
可能彼此不懂珍惜彼此的美丽
等不到奇迹

2007-10-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

back to the place where i once was.
on that silent night that silent place.
i talk. you listen. i cry. you wipe my tears.
its been long. i have changed. but you havent.

your light shines when all else fades.
your mercy is never ending.
i walk by faith. each step by faith.
how bad can it get if you're carrying me.
you turn my mourning into dancing.
my sorrows into joy.
my faith lies not in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.
all i ever need is you.
forever will be.

2007-09-27T00:43:00.000+08:00

pure indulgence!!!
i need a break.
break from all these.
dig a hole in the ground n bury myself!!!

2007-09-17T17:01:00.000+08:00

the best birthday present ever!
a driving license. whee!

my surprise bdae celebration in NTU. thanks everyone who contributed to it, and who turned up for it, and for the nice huge card and presents!

the girls

guys..

and me! i look so cute here!

2007-09-05T13:37:00.000+08:00

yay finally done with my FM project. it was a wow whee of a breeze! i can finally close the windows on my computer that are taking up so much space. and that means, i can celebrate my bdae in peace and not rush to hand in fm project. thanks guys!! and campaigning is over too. well its been rather fun lately i must say..making good new frens. can eat tog, study tog, go school tog. play what.. winning eleven or smth tog. dnd was not bad. i thought the food was quite nice. alright, stay tuned for pics coming up!

4 more days and its coming. i dont want it to come. because. it means i've to wait 365 days for it to come again. waiting never is the best part.

its a realization all too late. but better late than never.

2007-08-29T20:30:00.000+08:00

haveyoueverfeltsotiredyetnotknowwhyfeelsosiansometimesmissingthatoomphinlifefornoreasonatall?thesetwistandturnsoffate

2007-08-25T00:30:00.000+08:00

oh my cow!!!
have u ever been leeched?
it sucks blood out of you.
its eternal pain.

driving today was fun. even tho i was in a semi-concious state.
ok i need sleep.
and i need to study!!

2007-08-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

feel so blessed to have such great friends whom i can share my troubles with. yeah troubles. school isn't all that smooth sailing. the waves get rough and my boat is rocking. its not yet capsizing. but i fear it may.

its been fun and exciting living in hall. anyway i've to do tutorial. Finacial management. its so tough. spent the past hour... doing 3 mcq questions. hellll!!! maybe i should really concentrate more. (=

fairytales dont always have happy endings, do they?

2007-07-26T17:37:00.000+08:00

i love NBS! the best camp i ever went for in my ~19 years. altho we had an average of 2 hr sleep per night, it was worth it! and altho i fell sick for darn long aft camp, it was worth it! haha. dinner with a random guy on one of the nights, night walk, clubbing and not forgetting the super super fun slide! its so thrilling ok. so if u wanna try it, come to NBS! woohoo! anyway clubbing is quite fun. haha. but i think its bad influence. drinking and dancing. waha.

hall camp next. then school starts! cant wait! i go to school to play not to study. haha. going to collect my room keys with charlene on sat. then we'll do some spring cleaning. super exciting! anyway i've got enough of my holidays already. so slack until.. aiya i really got nothing better to do. lol. finally got down to buying birks online. pretty pretty i hope it delivers here!

3 days!

2007-07-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

i miss my vj days so much. and to think that last year at this time, i was counting down to the end of As. hoping that time would fly by and i could get over and done with junior college. what a waste. its all over for good. i dont miss my secondary school days as much. vjc brings back really good memories.

the fun, the people.
we play hard throughout, and study hard when necessary.
we love our teachers despite tutorials and exam questions being hell and un-doable. ponning class is part of our life.
failing exams is kinda a norm.
climbing of vjc gate.
coming to school late without mc is totally ok.
choir is the reason vjc was all worth it.
sopranos that mean everything.
choir room was the best place to hang out.
italy, riverdelgarda.
food is allowed almost everywhere in school.
tree top for relaxation.
girls who pon pe like free.
3 period gp lessons which are boring.
many math teachers.
mr lim and his jokes.
laughterpeaceandjoy.
~victoria, my love.

i miss school! today was pre-orientation for nbs camp. meeting new people, making new friends. i must say the girls are actually not too bad. but as for the guys,... i've not heard good comments from anyone yet. including myself. haha. vj guys seem so much better all of a sudden. its starting all over again. i'm feeling a bit apprehensive about school and everything. oh well! time will tell(=

2007-07-13T12:28:00.000+08:00

i've spent so much on shopping already and i still want to get something which costs abt 100 bucks. nonetheless, shopping makes me a happy girl. money is for spending no? off to nanyang biz school camp next wk. excited! at least there's something fun other than bumming around.

2007-07-02T12:53:00.000+08:00

HAHA i underestimated the difficulty of a driving test. oh well at least i did manage my goals. never mount/stike curb, never hit pole. lol and at least i managed to leave the circuit. many minor errors equate to a lousy and unsafe driver. i drive too slowly! and never accelerate enough. 3 times. 6 points. just like that. failed to slow down when approaching road hazard is 6 points?! there wasnt even road hazard la. just a bus that stopped. and i didddddd slow down. ah oh well. haha. there were some silly stuff i did. in my state of nervousness. actually i think it was not too bad overall. maybe is the moody tester. nvm i shall try again. SHORTLY.

oh yes. why did the car inventor invent a manual car? when theres something called auto. skipping that invention would be a good idea.

Chris Daughtry - Home

2007-06-30T18:03:00.001+08:00

2007-06-10T13:41:00.000+08:00

I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice...

back from lunch at courts. the food there is not too bad i think. my sister and i had laksa. hafen had that dish in a very very long time. so it was so irresistable! and we were so greedy, we ordered a bowl each. and had great difficulty finishing it cos the serving was HUGE. i guess i should treasure my family meals.. soon, there'll be much much less.

new news! i may be rooming with miss blue. heard she wants to fill the room with blue stuff. !!! blue isn't that nice!! i think i'll have monday-sunday blues. haha. well its great anw... 1 mth plus more.. till i move! exciting!

oh yes. i cut away my disgusting hair. and i finally realised dyed hair is ugly. or rather, black hair is still the best! i shall not dye my hair again unless it turns white. lol.

22days....

oh yes. donut pics! crazy free womans who went to queue.

2007-06-04T21:04:00.000+08:00

but because you didn't even try-
3 hours left. choices choices. is what u want more important than what others want for you? the future, the life, the needs, the stress. at the end of the day, every course is tough. the studying shouldn't matter. but we should study something we're interested in. not something that gives us a better life in the future. at least thats what i feel. i pray this is the right path God wants me to take. 10 years down the road, i will not regret my decision.

it ends tonight!

2007-06-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

darlings-unforgettable.lovable.priceless.

2007-05-31T22:46:00.000+08:00

perth

back from the land of kangaroos and kuolas. i personally prefer the kangaroos. they are such amazing and beautiful creatures, and seem to have some sort of a human nature. i'm not quite an animal person, but i really want a roo as my pet. yet, many times we desire for a certain something, which is impossible to have.

in perth, the pace of life is half of what it is here. its really relaxing. no one there is kiasu, and there is no need to run for buses cos the drivers wait for u! its so malu to actually run for a bus there.

the price of food is double that of spore. and of course the serving is relatively larger. everyday fish&chips, kebab. no wonder the angmohs are always bigger size than us asians! i figured.. spore food is still the best. perth is an alright place to go, but i wouldn't go there another time. the only thing i'd miss is the lovely weather and roo.

as of now, crossroads- ntu or nus. ntu is alluring. rahoon, ratan, siqi, charlene, jieying, ann are heading there. mostly same faculty somemore. nus is not that alluring bcos its a science course we're talking about. and science is ... WHAT AGAIN. but my good frens are going there! not frens in general, but really close frens. peien, shar, claricee!! no matter which path i take, i still lose half of my good frens. oh well. its quite sad. we cant have the best of both worlds. once school starts, it gets difficult to meet up. especially so if ur school is located at ulufied.. whats the add? haha i dont even know. boon lay!?

its been 6 months. oh dear. 2 more months. i'm dying of boredom. the hols are too long! yes i'm here complaining when the whole world out there wants to be in my position. i want school to start! and when it does i know i will regret my wish now. haha. alright. must catch pirates soonnn!

2007-04-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

caught in the middle of chances, choices and changes.

2007-04-08T14:35:00.000+08:00

perhaps i've been more wrong than right all these while.
but does it matter?
every minute, every second,
life still goes on...

can't wait for school to start!
can't wait to get my driving license! bwhahaa.

2007-04-03T00:18:00.001+08:00

lol. i'm jobless now. and pretty happy and excited about it! green with envy? haha. anyway sunday was my last day of work! after two months plus, finally gaining freedom. please dont question my lifestyle now! its plain rotting. really tired la need a break! and i dont really intend to go search for a job as of now. sunday was pretty cool. lunch at astons with mayanne siqi charis charlene. astons food is yummylicious! they ran out of my favourite corn tho. haha. before that mayanne came over to my workplace and we played a few rounds of bridge. was fun!

there was this customer who was so demanding. "this is not transparent at all.. blah blah.. i want to complain whos ur supervisor?? what ur dont even haf her email? even pm leees i also can get. what i can only get $200?? so little? for all the trouble im going to" sheesh lol. what a sunday.

ah sleepy. thanks pig for the delivery of donut all the way from the factory! it was really yummy(:

2007-03-25T16:48:00.000+08:00

its been a week of headache headaches and more headachess! oh boy. even now. today's the worse of the week. i think i need immediate medical attention! doctors seem to have this mindset that since u are still young, nothing that bad can happen. hopefully. because, i'm only just starting the next phase of my life! great 3 months so far i must say, and 4 more to go!

went to pseudo china that day. picked up stuff to make earrings and necklaces. so cool. gonna try making when i'm free! oh yea today went to ikea to eat with my family. then... walked over to the new giant. its packed like sardines! don't go there. just don't! the queue is like 7-8 times that of normal supermarkets. there u can see the sight of ugly singaporeans...haha.

oh anyway i'm glad my job is ending. the guys at work bully me. they are getting boring to be with! haha so i spent yesterday watching 2 movies. hot chick and final destination. the two guys were like "hot chick is some chick-flick movie. dont watch la waste time" and so i watched it myself intially. and guess what? they joined me in the end. its quite funny what. i kinda liked it.

went down to smu for the talk thingy on thurs. they haf plenty of scholarships to offer us undergraduates. really alot. the talk was, as usual, propaganda. met my jc classmates there and had a chat. accountancy and chem engineering seems to be the in thing this year. haha. still need to apply to nus later.. altho i feel like giving it a miss. cos i cant seem to choose which course i want there.

oh ya driving on friday was bad. was horrendous. so far its always been ok. until friday! first i was stuck in the toilet at home. cos my stomach wasnt cooperating. by the time i was done, i had like 6 mins to wash up and change blah and get out of the house. plus i was sleepy. i was late so i just grabbed my phone and wallet and left e house. i started lesson by dashing thru amber light 3 times. i just couldnt react fast enough i dont know why. and my instructor scolded me, for e first time. arghh. after that, at one traffic light the lights changed amber, of cos i couldnt afford to dash thru again, least i get scolded, so i jammed the break. HARD. and of cos la i got scolded. cos the car behind almost hit us. and.. i keep turning into the wrong lane. haha wake up girl. learnt parallel parking. quite tough eh. hahaha. cant wait to pass my test!

ahh. at long last. my head doesnt hurt much anymore. =)

2007-03-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

feels good; looks err. wadever.

why can't everyone be perfect. haha ok stupid thing to say i know. anyway, say hello to ntu. if i make a choice now, i would go to ntu accountancy. haha. but, then again. u never know what may happen. haha. why can't there be the same accountancy course in nus? everyone is saying that ntu is old and liveless. haha but i don't really care. the course should matter more than the school right. science has gracefully left my life mann. bio is cool tho..oh well. we'll see.

had a great time at work today. yes i had to work on a sunday. tired. give me a break. give me, a kitkat.

2007-03-06T11:59:00.000+08:00

whyyyy why

2007-03-03T22:48:00.000+08:00

ring ring ring ring.. 730am. its time to wake up jolencia. quick la get up la stop being so lazy. you dont need to sleep so much. after this shit u can slp for like 6 months. quick get up and study and then tonight you get to rest again. that'll be quite soon. just words to comfort myself with. the night is finally here. omg i'm so so tired. how many more days.. aiya come on la push urself u better do lor if not u're screwed. so by 8.. i'll reach expo coffee bean for my daily routine activity. and leave ard 4-6pm. thanks all who accompanied me, or offered to accompany me to study. people like rahoon, peien, irvin, yeo..kenny. we had fun. and we had shit. and we had delicious lerk thai. other times i go there alone. less distraction. wow. to think, the worse is over. it seems fast. but, i know it wasnt. it was. hell.

but. i guess the effort paid off. thank God from whom all blessings flow! not by our own wisdom, but by the power of God. i guess God's plan is always perfect. i'm not sure whats the next step i should take. it seems unbelievable. stay in spore or go overseas? i've always wanted to go overseas actually. well see what God's direction is. he'll open doors..he'll provide.. if i manage to get a scholarship, maybe i'll go. but, its alright to stay here to study too. woah. choices choices..

ntu or nus? dunno leh. anyway. my class did crazily crazy la. got 14 people with 4As, 4 with 3As. gp was a shocking surprise for me. i dont think an exam should determine our language ability really. its not very fair, altho the gd are really gd yes, but.. the marking is subjective..

wow. what a week. my back hurts.. work today was.. sian. nothing to do. only 11 customers. maybe its cause of the wet weather. yeah after reading all my rubbish, u prob still dunno what i got. well its okay right. no need to disclose to the world. haha.

2007-02-26T22:46:00.000+08:00

the reality of life.

its happening...

2007-02-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

brooom brooooomm broooooommm

my job sacked 3 people. i almost wanted to be the one sacked. but i gave up the relief teaching offer. am i miss stupid? haha. but because, its geog. and i dont exactly think i will do a gd job teaching geog. ah nvm. so, left the 5 of us. mann its gonna be boring. 3 people on shift everyday. that means. we lack 1 person to play bridge! ahh! must think of new 3 people stuff to do. maybe i'll bring my bible to read then i wont miss any QT. haha.

anyway, in the working world, we meet weird people. i made a nice new friend at work. but she's leaving, sadly. a few really weird guys. one decent guy. smokers included. oh well.

and oh yes. i passed my final theory test! Gods grace.

2007-02-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

today was so much fun!
my secret

anyway anyway this is FUNNY la.

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Jolencia!

While sleeping, fifteen percent of men snore, and ten percent grind their jolencia!
Jolencia can not regurgitate.
A cluster of bananas is called a hand and consists of 10 to 20 bananas, which are individually known as jolencia!
Owls cannot move their eyes, because their eyeballs are shaped like jolencia.
Some hotels in Las Vegas have jolencia floating in their swimming pools.
The first domain name ever registered was jolencia.com.
Jolencia will often glow under UV light.
The liquid inside jolencia can be used as a substitute for blood plasma.
Ancient Greeks believed earthquakes were caused by jolencia fighting underground.
Jolencia, from the movie of the same name, had green blood!

2007-02-02T00:22:00.000+08:00

beau ideal; night life in joochiat.

started the day with getting off my bed. yea duh. was pretty excited for work. so got up early, changed, and ate. rushed to take bus and managed to reach on time. anyway. really tired now. to cut it short. todays work was so slack. its like sitting around doing nothing, chit-chatting ect.. most of my collegues so to speak are also waiting for their As. sian, but time really passed so fast. so different from my previous job where i had to stare at the clock every minute.

surprisingly, there were only 19 customers in total for the entire day. may tmr be better. its not that slacking isnt good lol, but money isn't supposed to come that easy. HAHA.

OHHH theres this wai guy collegue tho. if u get what i mean. work ends so late .9pm. at least there are like 4 of us who take bus 12. haha. AND, prison break was such a disappointment! cant believe its the season finale. how can it end like that!!!

very incoherent entry. brain is dying.. and ageing.. oh and i havent talked about my worst encounter yesterday. maybe another time nightttt...

2007-01-30T20:52:00.000+08:00

i think the government should come up with a new system online that stores an individuals academic results, cca involvement, testimonials, pw grades, everything they participated in or involved themselves in. of course, these information should be kept private. and when we are looking for a job or school, companies can just access and get whatever info they need. right? and it obviously saves time and effort filing and keeping these certs. and, no one would encounter the "shit i lost my certs" problem. agree?

my jc cca cert, testimonial, top 3 achievements all went missing. poof. just like that. grew legs and ran away... irritating.

watched " happy birthday" today. only because louis koo was acting. if not chinese movies are a no no no. ahh sian.

2007-01-26T19:16:00.000+08:00

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace

have you ever wondered. what if u dont live to see tmr. what if i dont live to see tmr? will i regret. what i did and what i did not do. what i should haf said and what i shouldnt have. all these while, i never knew how precious life is. until it happened.

sometimes we need something to distract us away from our problems. anyway. anyway. i had fun driving around s'pore today. drove from eunos to bishan, without crashing. haha. but i stalled the car 3 times haha lost touch with driving after 1 week plus. headed to town thereafter, shopping and eating. pepper lunch is rather cool...

sian. dunno if i'll go watch late night movie later. if i feel better maybe...

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

2007-01-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

lovely voice sings lalala
wonder hands go taptaptap
perfect smile oh wowwowwow
just tell me howhowhow.

i love drums. i don't know why but it rocks. nat taught us drums today. altho it was just the basics. i realised.. i dont even know the basics. like holding the sticks! lol. ok at least i learned something thanks nat! haha. and its damn cool la. the double hit thingy whatever its called! lol. and thanks lynette for coming and yeah i know i made a silly comment..haha.

eh hmm oh yar today i watched ghost tunnel. since i was too bored. its rather nice la. not spooky enough for my liking tho. then met nic and peien. then went back vj to watch choir prac and talk to juniors. i really miss my juniors. ah... and i've come to realise, i miss choir room.

enuff said. whats past is past. yet some memories cant be erased. haha. eh anyway. today was fun. work training tmr. arrgghh. 845am! nuts. yeah. yup.

2007-01-23T12:04:00.000+08:00

2007-01-22T10:56:00.000+08:00

Hungry I come to You
For I know You satisfy
I am empty but I know
Your love does not run dry

finally, at long last. welcome back blogger.
i'm sick. my throat feels quirkky. must be the prawn crackers and fried chicken yesterday! yesterday was fun! yong tau fu then went mayannes house to slack and check out birks.

hmm i guess this week would be rather slack haha. and next wk it all starts all over again. oh well. i find that most people hate their jobs. really ask anyone. do u like ur job? u probably would get a NO reply.

the week has 7 days. and i wonder why every event falls on this wed. yes and coincidentally my friend just told me, which job isnt sian one lol.

Jesus You're all
This heart is living for

2006-11-03T17:08:00.000+08:00

there must be more than this...
everyone is unique in his/her own way...

i'm not on a blogging spree.
i'm just bored.
funny why i blog at wrong times.

i dragged my feet out of home today
hoping to get some work done.
and i met some friend of mine.
she just sat there and did work.
and more work.
i reached later, and left earlier.
shes good
shes the girl!
todays the last day i'm doing math.
wish me luck.

there ain't no guarantee...
and why aren't u trying hard enuff...

after gp paper yesterday, i felt sian.
i found some dvds at home
and i picked the covenant
bcos it somehow sounded cool.
gave me a magical feel.
and i thought it was some super outdated movie.
then i realised its just been released in the theatres.
wow so im not that outdated eh.
anyway. its nothing great a movie...
the story line should be used for some cartoon show or something.
lol... just that...
pretty lady and handsome hunk!

alrights. until next week.
next thurs... i will be a happy girl.

this is the hardest...
the arghfff...

2006-11-01T17:09:00.000+08:00

one word sums it all up
FLOP
gp was....
a flop

nevertheless, he who brings us to it,
brings us out of it.
nevermind the results
for its in God's hands.

newae. i wrote an essay on techno.
and so did everyone else.
compre was hard.
unexpected.
politics.governance.freedom.rights.
the worse of what could come out.
beyond my wildest imaginations.
only 1 passage given
instead of the usual 2
so how to do aq??
write rubbishhhhhhhhh
summary-- everything felt like a point
and everything felt like not a point.

no more gp!
its a good thing.
well, for now.
chemistry.

breathe the fresh air
marvel at the beauty of God's creation...

2006-10-30T17:10:00.000+08:00

its 3 days to Alevels
everyone's in the absolute mugging mood
cramming information into their minds
sticking their books to their faces.

i'm different.

i get worried sometimes.
i've got friends who wake up at 5plus in the morning
and sleep later than i do
and i can't even sit still for 4 hours.

there's only this much that i can do

the lord says "do not fear"
for every step we take,
he is one step ahead.
our lives are perfectly crafted into his plan

"be strong and courageous, do not be afraid, do not be discouraged, for God is with you wherever you go"

he sees each tear that fall and hears me when i call.
you are the reason i can carry on.

2006-10-03T17:10:00.000+08:00

hope is deceitful
it offers lies as truth
very few are realised
hope traps people in vain pursuits
leading to greater disillusionments in life
hope is distorting
it makes what is genuinely ugly and bad in life
appear no more than a temporary screen
for what is beautiful and good
its a cheaply purchased endlessly renewable commodity
that prolongs the torment of men

so why hope? and suffer the agony and pain.
but its too late...

2006-07-28T00:24:00.000+08:00

many words left unsaid.
and never will be said.
feelings felt.
feelings lost.

some things in life are meant to slip form ur finger tips.
regret? never.

2006-07-26T21:45:00.000+08:00

so many things in life; so many times we just let them slip.
helpless. hopeless.

2006-07-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

i wonder how; i wonder why

choir is.. fun. or rather, choir people are fun! i have mixed feelings about choir. haha. went for choir prac at SCH last night. our last performance this fri/sat. and.. i know i'm going to miss choir. we're the best! hee. i enjoy hanging ard choir pals more than my class pals. haha. its just so much laughter and humour. i can't get enough! but pity.. all good things have to come to an end. yea?

we went to lao ba sa to eat. its quite..sucky. so many stalls, yet nothing to eat. nothing that actually looked appetizing. lol. i remembered when i was a lil' girl things were much better then?

i must say this. choir has brought hell to its members. we dont perform well in our studies. with the exception of some pros. and by the time u realise ur studies are in deep shit, its too late. i think consistent work is important. ha to think it comes from me. too late dear. so... dont take part in a time consuming cca! at the end of the day, who cares abt that cca? hor?

pei en is my new math teacher. nic is my new chem tutor. FtoA here i come. lol.
yuppp i still hafen watched pirates! this is so disappointing!

yesterday you told me 'bt the blue blue sky

2006-07-17T10:22:00.000+08:00

breaking out in cold sweat/hot sweat.

i shall keep this short and sweet. and go back to sleep. how can things change in just a split second? anyway i'm stuck at home today. sick. graaa. the entire night i was experiencing intense pain in my stomach. and this morning, it finally came out. its like peeing through your shit. haha. quite bad. now its still pain. plus head pain.

what i find amazing was that the pain went away for those moments i was in church yesterday. the cgl appreciation thing was quite cool in the sense. they even graduated us batch of yr two's from fl! haha. ok got back my gp results. just. hai what can i expect lol.

i'm sweating profusely. oh happy birthday zh! i'm missing the celebration today. ahh. haha..

2006-07-15T20:34:00.000+08:00

the world would be a lonely place; without the one who puts a smile upon your face

for a moment i felt i was dreaming. and then i realised, all that happened was real. i did Fantastic for my commontests. can almost F everything. never did so horribly my entire life. LOL. but its okay la. at least, i'm okay. try harder lor.

"cast all your anxieties on him because he cares for you.." 1peter 5:7

mug from morning to night. boy does it hurt. i want to go jamming. drumming! basically do everything other than study. haha.

yesterday i came home from school and annouced " i'm dropping geog" my mum didnt say anything, partly because she seemed to be tied up helping my sis with her exchange stuff. they're going to canada so cool. i may go to visit her in dec, provided money falls from the sky. my sister violently objected to my comment. my younger bro said he wanted to drop chinese. my older bro said i thought you had a flare/passion for geog. i already convinced myself to drop. but fine la. bcos of my sis, and since i've already registered, i shall just try. i'm just lazy to have to study 1more subject. i should haf dropped earlier. but nvm. you never know what the outcome will be? i will soon know. but there's something abt geog that i hate. vj geog.

tmr is fl's 8/9? birthday. haha. well.

be glad and rejoice for the lord our saviour reigns; and the joy of the lord will be my strength. --carry me through.

2006-07-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

.:saturdayblues:.
today just seemed... ....
my emotions are topsy-turvy.
i didnt go for lunch with the choir ppl.
so, i didn't eat lunch or breakfast. partly due to my lack of appetite . went home. slept. with my contacts. when i woke up, my left eye started itching and was red. gah.

thats not just it...
i don't know.
something's majorly upsetting my life.

is this the climax.
cause i can't take anymore.

2006-06-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

It's been a long, long time since I looked into the mirror
I guess that I was blind
Now my reflection's getting clearer
Now that you're gone things will never be the same again

There's not a minute that goes by every hour of every day
You're such a part of me
But I just pulled away
Well, I'm not the same girl you used to know
I wish I said the words I never showed

I know you had to go away
I died just a little, and I feel it now
You're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now
Here with me
Here with me

You know that silence is loud when all you hear is your heart
And I wanted so badly just to be a part of something strong and true
But I was scared and left it all behind

I know you had to go away
I died just a little, and I feel it now
You're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now
Here with me
Here with me

And I'm asking
And I'm wanting you to come back to me
Please?
I never will forget that look upon your face
How you turned away and left without a trace
But I understand that you did what you had to do
And I thank you

I know you had to go away
I died just a little, and I feel it now
You're the one I need
I believe that I would cry just a little
Just to have you back now
Here with me
Here with me

nice song.
i wonder why my heart beats this way.
ok nvm.

so, i shall blog about my very slackk and exciting day.
today i went to watch 'just my luck'.
and woah.
pure luck? my bro was in the same theatre. i was 2rows behind him. and he didnt see me.
and. its true that. er, better not write here. haha.

then. met my lovely classmates who had physics paper tdy, for dinner.
woooooooooooooooooooooo.
tmr's bbq!
ok lala. very distracted now. shall blog someothertime.

2006-06-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

last episodes of chinese serials are pretty boring. haha the happy ever after story-line. hee. i missed the last 2 episodes because of CT. grr haha. ah the show..so sweet..

anyway commontest 2 is over not sure if its a good or bad thing. but what i realised is that, if this were the actual A's, i would really cry.

today's chem was like sai! especially the mcq. no time! and not just that, the questions were so lengthy, and seemed out of the syllabus. too cheam! how to do? play the guessing game. haha. and geog. sigh.. and im gonna fail maths. i think the teacher doesn't need to mark my paper, just put a BIG 0!

haha today the geog-gers went out for dinner. went bugis. was pretty enjoyable. then i din bring my house key, and was locked out. im very tired now. really need sleep.

woohoo no school till tues. i thought the hols just ended? its only the beginning. haha goodnight. im gonna slp so well. tonight..tonight..

2006-06-24T21:44:00.000+08:00

its like abt 1day left before the dumb exams start. to be exact 34 hours. and. what am i doing!? i just can't make myself sit down and study. of all times. what is wrong with me. the whole wide world is probably mugging away. including my class. mugggggers. i mean its really easy to say go study or i want to study. but doing it is IMPOSSIBLE for me. why. why. why. i'm sad, depressed. its not like i'm anywhere near finishing. and my geog. not even started. freakkk. why am i so lousy.

today there were alot of guests at my house.
mommy's cg+ my bro's friends.
and so, i just locked myself in the room.
i feel anti-social today.
anyone would like to share my pain.
maybe its my fault.
perhaps.

i need to stop running..
stop and see the things around me.

2006-06-24T15:44:00.000+08:00

at the rate i'm going. please do visit my grave. thank you.

this life. never felt so terrible. its just a common test! and in a way, its worth nothing. yet, its eating up my everything. and its true, there is no reason to look forward to after common test. for what lies ahead? stinky eeky shit that smells worse than now. life isn't just about studying! but as if we have a choice. oh well, always look on the bright side of life. dada..dadadadadada.

2006-06-21T17:02:00.000+08:00

!%$#*(&^%#&!

crazyshit.

2006-06-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

amazing. all 4 of us are online at the same time.
its a rare chance that all my siblings are home. as we all grow older. haha.

i dragged myself to school.for the first time this hols.
thanks to mr quek. we met mr lim to go through chem. there was this fly that kept flying towards mr lim, but not towards me or zh. LOL. he was like "stupid"

okay irrelevant. but the scene was pretty amusing.
went choir room thereafter. i was lying on the couch, then i realised that, in time to come, i wouldn't be able to enjoy the comfort of the cr. haha.

OHOH
check out channel 5 or CNA this sunday. 7pm. i think.
presenting...VJChoir! haha.

yesterday i had an eeeEEKY experience at NUH.
my heart appointment.
bcos im having eeeky heart-breaking experiences that i cant handle. OKAY KIDDING.
my yearly appointment that i never ever blog about all these years.
the doctor sent me for ultrascan, its once in.. maybe 3 years? for me.
jotham and i both HATE it. cause it hurts. they press so hard onto our chests.
plus the uneasy feeling of having to remove clothes. HAHA.
anyway, ya la. i dont get anything out of this. don't know what its for.

ooh my show has started..

2006-06-18T17:13:00.000+08:00

hahahahahahahahahahaha

today was ULTRAFUN!
mayanne.maeyan.sikhi.lynette.char.charis.amanda.
gavin.me.
first we went parkway mos for brunch.
then gavin brought us to this place called.. "settler's something.."
its basically a cafe like place to play board games. you may think it sounds cheezy. "board games? sian." but no! it was the perfect paradise where reality seemed out of reach. just hanging around/playing with such great pals.

come to think of it, i've known most of your for 8 years! wow.
looking forward to more great times with u people!
now. i better go catch up with my work. CT is next week! !!!!
believe it or not.

hahahahahahahahahahaha

2006-06-16T23:04:00.000+08:00

glamour and poise--woo!

my heart and my brain contradict my thoughts.
i find it to be oh-so-true.

the world is nothing without eye candies
HAHA yes so cheryl.
without eye candies the world'd be blind.
HAHA yes again.

so. its been rather boring this hols.
i watch so much tv.
thank God for tv!
currently there's this show on vvdrama that is ultra nice.
8pm. go catch it!

and i'm obviously exploiting the use of my bro's laptop when he's not around. whoops.
i've figured that..
2-6pm is the most non-ideal time to study.
in fact, it's the least productive moment of a day, where work done=0%
or maybe 2% for respiring.
hmm i'm tired.and bored.
everytime its time to study geog, my attention span gets rather short.
and the day goes by without accomplishing anything.
i pretty much enjoy geog..but, i dont/cant study! queer!

well shall get some rest now.
i'm looking forward to sunday.
bully gavin! (:

simply irresistible.

2006-06-13T19:07:00.000+08:00

i'm falling..deeper and deeper, into the deep blue sea. "almost there, almost there" i said. i'm nearing the sea bed, where the treasure chest lies. "its filled with gold coins, jewellery, antiques and is worth millions of dollars.." according to rumours. i started to fear, fear not being able to get hold of the contents in the treasure chest, going home empty handed and further disappointing my parents and friends. not forgetting, the fear of not living up to my own expectations.

then! sharks approached me. not one, but many. "freak!" i said. "what am i to do?!" i got down on my knees (hmm i forgot, there's no floor in the ocean! just imagine haha) and asked God "HELP!!" at that moment, super hero Jackie Chan appeared. and with the combination of our strengths, we defeated the sharks. how was it possible? i don't know.

i blinked. he disappeared. physically. but i knew he was there spiritually. i continued falling and falling.. "almost there..this time i have to be really almost there, nearer than before at least..."

hmm what an analogy of my life!

i'm so inspired by zh. tv can be his short-term motivation to study. for me, i watch throughout the day. long-term motivation, to do well. AAA-, GP B4 or better. same for me! hmmmm but how.

God, i surrender my life/studies to you. i'm weak.frail.incapable. i can't do this alone. please be my guide, shepherd, light through this period. i dont need tv to be my motivation. God because you are my motivation!

"With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible"-matthew 19:26

2006-06-06T19:40:00.000+08:00

perfect yet imperfect.

there are some people in life we will definitely make time for.
despite our busy schedule.
and no matter how much work there is left to be done.
because they mean so much to us.
because work can never be finshed.

speaking of work.
studying sucks.
and i'm 5months away to the end of jc life.
end of Alevels.
cant wait!
multiple activities lined up.
and i don't have to go to school anymore.
at least for 6months la.(:
tahan.tahan.tahan!

oh oh.
silver is nicer than blu-ish purple right?
hahaha.
sail on silver girl.

my big bro is back from china!
bought lots of nice stuff back for me
so sweeeeeet.
thank u!
and i finally got back my mp3.
hahaha.

went town with clar today.
so wheeeee fun.
chat. eat. shop.
catch up on the good old times.
lol.

you fill my life with gayness (:

2006-05-31T20:06:00.000+08:00

for what. this that. that this.

ahh.
i need more brain cells.
head transplant?

stupidity.

2006-05-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

different frequency. oh shucks i forgot.

ok i must stay calm.
the highlight of the day was food fair at expo!
not the silly choir rehearsal.
we were in our school uniform, going from booth to booth sampling, or rather koping food!
my goodness.
went in a hungry kid, came out a satisfied soul.
lol..
walked home.
whee i'm excited for tmr.
neglecting my studies
helpppp!

the curse of the black pearl; indeed so

2006-05-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

you make me go WOW in any language.

its 1130pm and i'm still waiting for tim kor to come.
quick! quick!
thanks anyway for coming, its so late la. and for everything (:
re-subscribing to cable.
meaning i'll be glued to the tv.
die. midyrs are coming.
the year must end soon!
cant take it hehe.

starting to have coughing fits once again.
arghhh.

its a pity sometimes; somehow.

2006-05-27T18:07:00.000+08:00

right smack stuck in the middle of no where

why why why?
how'd things end up in such a state.
i agree with lyn that our class in now polarised.
not 2 poles as of last year, but 4 poles; NSEW.

i mean, i freakin' do not care about that 'negatively' charged pole that exsisted since last yr. since they dont even attempt to be part of the class. but as for the rest of us, what happened to the close friendships, the fun, the enjoyable class outings!?

this week was the worse week of school.
bcos i felt weird in class.
which explains my disappearance.
yea, haha.
bel, zh tell me one thing..
joc tells me her side of the story..
both sides contain BITCH.
bitch here bitch there.
for what la!

i don't side anybody.
but i feel things were better off before the SDD thing happened.
forgive and forget ppl!
why spoil the friendships? the fun?
yesterday was class outing to seoul garden.
dunno what shit happened la.

nvm.
today's choir prac was surprisingly short.
CNA came down to film us.
then kwei dismissed us
and said hol pracs all cancelled.
wooowhee.
had sops jts at fish and co.
was superb.
thank u juniors.
sopsiesss!!!

and alas.
thats abt it.

do miracles really happen?
i'm hoping for one.

2006-05-21T23:07:00.000+08:00

feel so demoralized.
maths is so hard.
what now. how.

2006-05-20T20:12:00.000+08:00

i'm a picky girl yes indeed.

haha what?
hmm i was just thinking about past experiences and i came to that conclusion.
heeeeeee.

i'm back from JB!
fun shopping!
the stuff are relatively cheap.
food cost half the price of sg.
our pizza hut meal cost 22 dollars
5 of us.
large pizza, drinks, soup, garlic bread, salad, waffle with vanilla ice-cream and hot chocolate fudge, and this other thing which tasted like kebak.
shiok.
then chinese dinner at night was cheap and good.

my bro finally bought his KH2.
whats so nice abt it anyway..
and the body shop there sells things cheaper too!
i bought the body mist thingy.
haha.
maybe, its the conversion rate thats good.
which makes things cheap.

lol... of cos there's more..

and.. i spent so bloody long doing tutorial 6.1 on continuous random variables! so hard. almost dieded. if there's such a word.
still haf tut 6.2 to spend my night with.
geeeeee.
i'm lagging..

i should get to work now. then i can sleep!
is there really choir next wk. wth...

2006-05-18T15:57:00.000+08:00

i'm home early!
for once. haha.
my class is down to support soccer boys
but i'm far too sleepy....

SOV 06 rocked!!

the 156 gang!

ok im lazy to put more here..

www.jumpingjellybeans.shutterfly.com

thats all for now (:

more than meets the eye

2006-05-14T20:36:00.000+08:00

I have a maker
he formed my heart
Before even time began
my life was in his hand

I have a Father
he calls me his own
He'll never leave me

He knows my name
he knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call

today i'm a happy girl.
in a happy world.
HEE.
i learnt alot from our group time in church today
and i found out that there are others who share my experience.
and i'm not alone.
if ivee didn't start sharing,neither would i.
me--i keep all my problems within me; don't tell anyone.
and finally dieeee when i cant take it.
hahaha
i wanna love God and grow closer to him.
yupyup.

went to the beach today...(:
and the book "my sister's keeper" is nice
for once i'm getting hooked on a book.

can't wait for tues to come.
can't wait for tues to be over.
the feeling will be great in all ways.
like what zh said.

2006-05-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

Lord send me anywhere, only go with me.
Lay any burden on me, only sustain me.
sever any tie but the tie that binds me to thyself.
-David livingstone.

came across that during qt. yup.
thats what i'd really need to tell God now.
numerous problems, worries, stress.
how to cope.

REAL TIRED.

choir prac today was fun.
for no apparent reason tho.
except for 1 thing.

anyway i think the rock around the clock choreo rocks totally
haha.
girls chorus is nice too.
ok im real excited for SOV!
i will miss vj choir.
save the tears for tues.

anyway anyway.
tmr is mother's day
usually its my korkor who'd buy the prezzie.
now that he's not ard.
oh dear.
haha better think of something. soon.

REAL SLEEPY

thats all for now.
hmmmm

the day my heart broke

2006-05-11T21:40:00.000+08:00

at times. like now.
my world seems so messed up.
be it in school, or even at home.

choir ends so late everyday i don't get to see my parents; siblings.
the food is cold when i get home.
i just sleep.
and the cycle repeats itself.
when will all of these end?

in school. ok i feel abit detached from my class.
because of choir;choir room
but still, thank God for such great classmates who i can depend on
yup no more after SOV.
things will be so different.

myheadhurts, myeyesfeelhot.
don't feel so good.
tmr still have choir prac.

better get some rest now.

if i've to learn it the hard way; boy have i learnt; boy have i got enough.
and i don't want anymore.

2006-05-07T19:52:00.000+08:00

shepherd of my soul
i give you full control
wherever u may lead
i will follow

i have made the choice
to listen for ur voice
wherever u may lead
i will go :)

argh my laptop has no more batt.
thats all for now (:

2006-05-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

yoohoo.

welcome back to the blogging world.

woohoo.

some pig stole my blog address. my uniquely original "bubbleboo"
well fine then, i am now "bi-orch" lol.

i feel so relieved and relaxed now. finally after two weeks of shit.
no more stress. no more headaches. i think.
this morning, some smartass went to take SAT and came out feeling like a dumbass.
haha. guess whats done is done no point brooding over it.
and no way am i going to do it again. too taxing for my brain.

anyway, went out shopping/eating/bitching with kenny and pei en. the siao siao people.
we were supposed to be in search for our costumes for SOV but. hehe.

i suddenly dun feel liike blogging
again
sheesh4get it

2006-04-27T22:51:00.000+08:00

The hours I spend with you I look upon as sort of a perfumed garden, a dim twilight, and a fountain singing to it. You and you alone make me feel that I am alive. Other men it is said have seen angels, but I have seen thee and thou art enough.

sometimes i wish, yes u know what i wish.

YUP.

2006-03-18T22:56:00.000+08:00

--censored--

2006-03-16T20:40:00.000+08:00

You ask me if I love you and I choke on my reply
I would rather hurt you honestly than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you on what you say or do
I am only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honestys too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides
Romance and all its strategy leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity some tenderness survives
Im just another writer, still trapped within my truths
A hesitant prize fighter still trapped within my youth

At times I d like to break you and drag you to your knees
At times I d like to break through and hold you endlessly
At times I understand you and I know how hard youve tried
Ive watch while love commands you
And Ive watched love pass you by

At times I think we are drifters, still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister, but then the passion flares again
And sometimes when we touch
The honestys too much and I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

2006-03-16T20:22:00.000+08:00

Love you; its not only because of your beauty
I love you more and more, your every eye contact touches my heart
Because you let me see forever then I understand myself
Please treasure the days that are about to come

Love me; there are some pain, some unfairness
If you really love me; this is not an "of course" decision
I can feel your breathe next to my ears as magical as breeze passes by
You softly comforted my uneasiness
Therefore I want to study your smile everyday
Ooh, how natural this is

Forever love forever love
The only thought on my mind is that I want to use my whole lifetime to love you
From now on, you will be the every reason for my happiness
Love is a most beautiful and furthest travel
There will be rains and mud along the way which sometimes prevent us from going
I can feel your temperature in my arms as warmly as sunlight
You magically melt my uneasiness
Unbelievable, this proves the reason why I love you
Ooh, how natural this is

Forever love forever love
The only thought on my mind is that I want to use my whole lifetime to love you
From now on, you will be the every reason for my happiness

Your eyes flicker with touchiness, my silent voice seemed to be the best evidence
Please let me repeat once more: I love you oh (until eternality)
Forever love forever love
The only thought on my mind is that I want to use my whole lifetime to love you
From now on, you will be the every reason for my happiness
Forever love forever love forever love
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forever forever forever.
how dumb.
more like never never never.
nice song
listened to it 100times today.

i miss choir camp. the people. everything.
DAYDREAMS.
grr.

2006-03-03T12:57:00.000+08:00

well..it has been long hasn't it?

the hectic lifestyle for the first quarter of the year is over!
now i'm looking forward to the hols, as well as ITALY.

somehow i feel happy for those who got posted to acjc.
ah but i guess vjc is hipandhappening!
a lifetime experience not to be missed.
haha..

well, long day ahead! heading down to suntec for the uni talks.
yes uni.. i wonder if i'll make it to uni.
then yup sakae!! long waited treat.

piano exam on monday..
lactic acid accumulating in my fingers mann.
gtg out now tata.

2006-02-16T15:37:00.000+08:00

a week ago my friend gave me 2 hamsters.
yesterday when i reached home i had 8 hamsters!
today. i have 2 hamsters. :(

i think the mommy ate the babies.
i saw it nibbling on the baby's head and thereafter,
there was no sign of life.
whywhywhy i was so excited n happy.
guess i'll have to wait till the next litter is born.

ponned my chem r. hee whats new.
i intended to go.
but too sleepy.
yes i shall go sleep now.
my thurs afternoons are meant for replenishing my whole week's sleep
my ideal sleeping time=10hours
time i sleep=6hours or less
time lost per week=4x7=28!
ah pitiful.
at least there isn't much school next week.
SPA! ...
zzz.

the best thing happened today.
anditsneversoperfect

2006-02-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

its 12am. the clock strikes 12. like duh.

had jts today.
it means junior treat senior.
but it seems more like senior treat themselves.
dined at billy bombers;heeren.
its quite ex a place to dine
the bill came up to $515.

i'm feeling so tired.
lack of sleeeeep
rather lack of time to sleep.
oh gee.
and i think tmr is mock nafa test.
i cant broad jump for nuts!!!
monday. i dread mondays..
super long school day.

oh yes! woohoo i ran 3.2km on wed!
i actually went to school.
its a huge accomplishment!
oh btw,
how to have a flat tummy?
do sit-ups help?
cos if they do i'd do them now.
hehe.

i think i should go do my experiencing God.
i'm so slack.
this is bad.

"you're the reason that i live.. the reason that i sing.."

something i lack
something i want
just what is it

2006-01-28T15:05:00.000+08:00

happy cny!
once again it's the red season.
dressing up in new clothes
running from house to house
eating and eating.. bakua.. the peanut thing.. yusheng..
and not forgetting, angbaos!

6days hol in a row!
haha didn't go to school yesterday
and don't think i'll be going on wed.
slacker. yeah.
been just so tired this few weeks.
feeling the stress of being a year 2 right from the 3rd wk of school.
terrible.

common tests soon.
must get a D for all subjects
so no need for remedials.
ah. and who just wants a d. d sucks. gah.
maybe i shud drop a sub or something.
like geog.. not that i'd need it, i think.

oh yes! i'll be going to italy!
River Del Garda. and Venice too!
whee! choir trip/competition
april 6-17 :) so exciting!
remember what we learnt in ss about venice?
there's no roads or something?
transport by boat?
something like that la.
i didnt study that haha.

anyway, the conditions: dont do badly for ct.
better study la. gee.
can't wait for dec to come.
lol...

honestly, with or without matters a whole lot.
give me some time, i'm almost eighteen.

2006-01-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

"i want to stand with you on a mountain, i want to bathe with you in the sea.."

we've done it all..

right before my very eyes
there lay a prince
hes black im white
hes lives in the dark, i in light
im the female frog
waiting to turn into a princess
just lacking that kiss
from my lovely prince

unfortunately/fortunately
we live in different worlds
i cant cross over to ur world
as much as i would like to
so as long as i live
u and i will always be
a perfect dream

i will always be
a pretty purple frog!
i don't want
any other prince.

"a new beginning, a reason for living, a deeper meaning.."
truly madly deeply. i want you.

attempts at acting cute.

2006-01-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

attempts at acting cute.

not so cute eh.

2006-01-06T17:15:00.000+08:00

Here I am humbled by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am,
knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I've found
the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire
Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

2005-12-30T17:19:00.000+08:00

i think i'm going through a period of intensive weather change!
its HOTHOTHOT!
i actually sweat.
and my poor nose is blooooody.
anw..

IT WAS SNOWING, SUCH A PRETTY SIGHT!
from belgium to paris, and in switzerland.
switzerland is such a beautiful place.
i'm migrating there. haha. in my dreams.
and paris is not what u think it is.
its not a fantasy world.
not the perfect shopping paradise or what
its quite messy, things are so expensive. and a lot of b.....
hehe.

to keep things short, it was fun!
need to sleep now.

2005-12-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

byebye folks. hehe.

hohoho merry christmas! (:

2005-12-20T23:21:00.000+08:00

is it right to say the world's a weird weird place, with weird weird people?

urlikeacandle
shinesobrightly
youbringwarmthandcomfort

i spend my free time playing x-box. lol. and i'm convinced its not a girl game. halo.. its quite fun i guess, but its not for people who don't have a sense of direction! me haha.

butyoulightonly
duringfestiveseasons

was at town today again.

nooxygenavailable
thenpoofeverything
goesdim

i wonder.

waitillthenextseason
whereyoulightagain
untilyoufullymelt

bags all packed, ready to go! lost all interest in studying. as usual :)

2005-12-19T19:21:00.000+08:00

king king, kong kong! bing bing, bang bang!

okay anyway watched kingkong today. was a rather long show. but its NICEEEEE! and sweet. it was such a last minute decision to watch king kong. met lyn in sch after choir in the s&t centre, and i played with the inky thing, whatever its called. pcr isit? the agar thing. pipette thing. and i do it well! haha. no la. then lyn was lyk" wanna watch kingkong?" i didnt mind so decided to go. luke shaun couldnt go, sadly. i wasnt intending to ever watch it. haha it was somewhat lyk jurrassic park. haha. yes then went to buy my bros bdae present. oh that reminds me..

happy bdae joshy

on friday and sat had carolling. yup. was so fun! on fri we sang at biopolis, then the guy in charge gave us $250 for our dinner. lollll. for 23 people. caroline, me, weiling, darren, rayner. the 5 of us ate zhi cha. costs $40++ and had drinks too. was gooooood. sat we sang at safra telok blangah. then rushed to esplanade to sing. was a long night. celebrated my bros bdae yest, at crystal jade, where i met maeyan. haha. orchard road is too conjested. too small. saw grace & chris carolling. was not bad. but i saw some real terrible performances. haha lol.

okie..btw im flying off to europe on wed! yay! i hope it snows. :) i'll bring back snow for u all, just that it'll be in liquid state. haha. will try to bring back something nice for u all. my next destination will be bangkok. stuff there are all so cheap. but that'll be.. hmm.. after Alevels. sheesh. haha shall go next next january. :p

i shall bring along maths to study. lets see.. complex no, trigo, small approx, vectors,inequalities. yup thats all. i don't believe i cant study finish those in 9 days. i shud start to believe. bah. no time la, maths r maths r.. blah. thank god i don't need to take chem r or else i'll ddddiiiiieeee. my chem sucks. ok shall start on my chem tutorials now. oh wow. how. prob very hard, won't know how to doooo..

2005-12-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

such an awkward day!

got up early to chiong my tuition homework. 9plus. because i needed to go out. haha.
met sikhi at tm. went shopping for stuffs. and we met so many people along the way. i met the most hated person at camp, guoliang 3 times! haha that was mentioned for fun. because he kept torturing us. and met shaun too. 3 times. and then i listened to the song everytime, and the first few words i heard had the number 3 in it. whats with 3? its all in the mind. lol.

then went for lunch.. macs. we were going budget. not enough money. hehe sophie was there too, discussing the narnia thing. and we met tim kor. then i left.

on my way home right, the most absurd thing happened. there was a massive human/train jam at newton mrt. basically the entire north-south line was 'stuck'. the train finally came, but there was no space to stand even. at least i'm finally home. hehe.

2005-12-12T23:02:00.000+08:00

today marks the end of syc!

in brief...

it was fun. got to know more people, get closer to close friends.
i must say the games were not bad. tho i couldnt make it for the beach one.
bunked with 4 great pals. mayanne, maeyan, siqi and soap->my twin. haha all the bridge playing, i guess we should all be pros by now.

well i must say i learnt alot at this camp. and guess life is abt being the wheat and not the weed. haha.

anyway, i've got a new yr resolution.
and that is to not go online so frequently in the new year to come. yes. maybe just once a wk. how possible? we'll see.
i realised i turn on the comp for nothing, with no objective in mind.
and this blog. er i'm not sure what would happen to it. haha. lyk i always say.
but seriously, i've great fears. lyk. its such an impt yr. it either breaks u or makes u.
where we go from there.. our future. freaky right.

so scared to take the next step..
what if i fall into the black pit..

looking back..
my results--> terrrrible.
my class--> great fun. really enjoyable. just perfect at times.
my closer friends--> thanks for help n encouragement.
and everyone else who made a difference in my life. haha thanks.

oops.

erm. i've got a super duper nice winter jacket! red colour. thick. makes me look fat.
okie will be occupied till i fly off.
until the new yr comes.
merry christmas one n all!

2005-12-12T12:14:00.000+08:00

i'm backy backy! back from SYC. yeah.

know what, i dont feel lyk writing. i'm not exactly free. not when i realised this::::::: this really is a holiday for once. why? because holiday= not doing work. and i've successfully met the ...

bye.. incomplete entry.

i've got this lovely winter jacket!!!! its red, its thick, and its so gonna rock. can't seem to contain my excitement, but yet, have mixed feelings about this trip.

erm. my brain ain't working. going to slp.

2005-12-05T17:41:00.000+08:00

one.. two.
still my heart, and hold my tongue
i feel my time, my time has come
let me in, unlock the door
i never felt this way before

and the wheels just keep on turning
the drummer begins to drum
i don't know which way i'm going
i don't know which way i've come.

hold my head, inside your hands
i need someone who understands
i need someone, someone who hears
for you i've waited all these years

for you i'd wait, til kingdom come
until my day, my day is done
and say you'll come, and set me free
just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me.
in your tears, and in your blood
in your fire, and in your flood
i hear you laugh, i heard you sing
i wouldn't change a single thing

and the wheels just keep on turning
the drummers begin to drum
i don't know which way I'm going
i dont know what i'll become

for you'd i'd wait, til kingdom come
until my days, my days are done
say you'll come, and set me free
just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me.

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super sweet song. ssss... makes me drift into another world... if only i can stay in the other world. haha.

anyway, highlights of my life. CHOIR CONCERT. yup.. was over on sat. i guess it was not bad, all the dancing and singing. i guess our efforts did pay off.

oh ya, christmas came early this yr. i made christmas cards till 3am last night. hand made. shows sincerity okay! and i realised making cards is time consuming. dont have time to make anymore already.. so hmm.. next yr i will give out more cards. pardon me, im so busy la.

church camp this wk! whee! so fun. i hope. then i'll be flying off to see snow! :) yay i'm so excited. by the time i come bk, sch reopens. and... i havent touched my sch wk yet, and i dont have time to study for maths R. i cant do the maths assignments given. i dont know how to do!!! i'm in deep shit. lyn help me when u come bk k? :)

i keep eating. japanese peas, duck, durian icecream, peas again. and after finishing all these, i still could not find a solution to the maths question. wtf. why is maths so hard? argh.

2005-11-25T20:42:00.000+08:00

what bbq? lol.

when there's no bbq pit, do u even consider it a bbq? haha. oh btw, i had a tummy ache this morning when i woke up..and throughout the day. and i guess the cause of it is the "food". oh. what food? haha.

zh sent a msg yest at ard 245 asking whether we want to have a bbq at his house. oh by the time i read the msg it was 5. haha.. supposedly the time we were supposed to meet. well anyway, he broke the news! "i don't have a bbq pit." -blur look- then how? he bought an aluminium tray, cut 2big holes in it, and put a grill ontop. its SO AMUSING a bbq. he burnt the charcoal on the stove b4 putting it in the aluminium tray. the fire was no doubt too strong, and most of the food were burnt! LOL. sausages were half black. and his mum had to cook for us. haha zh oh zh.. by the time dinner was over it was almost 10.

anw, i found out there's actually a straight bus home.. thanks shaun! haha..

another nice song.. currently my fav... other than collide...

when u say u love me.

Like the sound of silence calling,
I hear your voice and suddenly
I'm falling, lost in a dream.
Like the echoes of our souls are meeting,
You say those words and my heart stops beating.
I wonder what it means.
What could it be that comes over me?
At times I can't move.
At times I can hardly breathe.

When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still inside and
When you say you love me
For a moment, there's no one else alive

You're the one
I've always thought of.
I don't know how, but I feel sheltered in your love.
You're where I belong.
And when you're with me if I close my eyes,
There are times I swear I feel like I can fly
For a moment in time.
Somewhere between the Heavens and Earth ,
And frozen in time,

Oh when you say those words.
When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still inside and
When you say you love me
For a moment, there's no one else alive

[bridge:]And this journey that we're on.
How far we've come and I celebrate every moment.
And when you say you love me,T
hat's all you have to say.
I'll always feel this way.
When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still inside and
When you say you love me
In that moment,
I know why I'm alive
When you say you love me.
When you say you love me.
Do you know how I love you?

2005-11-21T20:00:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt tired? so tired. tired of everything? well, thats how i feel anyway. somehow i miss school. i miss my classmates. [really! haha] i miss lectures. [yeah rite] eh wait. no link to my first sentence. very sleepy now. hai.

tired in the sense..
lack of sleep,
the same few routine activities everyday, in particular cca.
sick of the things i do.
i need more excitement.
like more class chalets.
more stayovers.
just as long as its fun and brings happiness, joy&laughter.
haha. ok nvm.

whats with guys and comp games. shouldn't you all spend ur time more wisely?
haha. tmrs pw outing! hope it'll be fun and not just dead silence..... then shall see the lightings at orchard road! haha.

oh yes! christmas is coming! woohoo! its really gonna be a white christmas this year. lol. i hope to see snow. yep.

oh ya. vjc choir concert, 3rd dec, 730 at vjc performance theatre. interested tell me!! yup.

2005-11-19T18:54:00.000+08:00

class chalet...

rem the kitty i was talking abt? :)

class chalet...